What are ways to fall in love with God? I find myself trying so hard to find his ways attractive, to want to love him, but sometimes I will realize I have gone without even thinking or caring about him, or choosing sin. And that makes it seem like we don’t have a relationship, and that seems wrong. I don’t think I’m not saved, but I just don’t know how to get more serious about him. I want to want his ways, but when it gets tough it seems like I must not want it enough to stick it through.
It’s first of all very awesome that you’re asking, since most people fall “out of love” with God and immediately run to anything else but Him. Sort of like running from the doctor when you’ve been diagnosed with treatable cancer. But you may also be taking it really hard on yourself when not-feeling-God is actually part of the growing process with Him.
If you have an “off day” and beat yourself up over your apparent lack of faith, that’s the same as feeling stupid about feeling stupid. It’s an endless pity party and doesn’t help. It’s really okay to tell God, “I don’t feel you right now, I don’t want you right now, I don’t know what to do from here.” He can handle that, you know.